A sunny Christmas day. Spent it being ill. Vomiting is one of those painful moments that reminds one that sometimes, its your body that controls you. The pain of puking is awful, I felt like a wretch.If I were an atom then all I would experience is the sea of particles moving around me. Family, earth, place, career, kinship and emotions would have no meaning. It is my perspective and place in it which in part provides me with the present moment. The rest is free will, consequence and chance.